Sunday, September 25, 2011


     How are you readers? I hope you guys are doing fine there. You have no idea how much I miss you guys. I plan to come back to my hometown this coming October and like seriously, I can't wait to see you guys. Well, some of you may be surprised for I come back to my blog again after a long time of absence. Asking why? It's simply because instead of this silly blog, I don't know who I can talk to anymore. If you were my loyal readers, you should have known that since this blog was created, it has became the ONLY place for me to share anything. 


    I just got back from dinner with my brother and the others at the restaurant near my school which sells the yummiest fried rice ever. After that, we went home together-on foot of course, and had a little  private talk along the way back home. Talking about my brother, he's 21 since he had his birthday 20 days ago, handsome, smart,  fun, nice, adorable, naughty, yet crazy. I must admit that my life's been so good since I met this guy 55 days ago. Actually, he's my brother from another grandfather, another grandmother, another father, and of course another mother. His father is my aunt's husband's brother, blah blah. Just ignore it, I fully don't care about how we are linked, the only thing I know is he's my brother. The end.

   My mood is weird these lately. I can suddenly feel annoyed, unhappy, upset, jealous, without plausible reasons. Frankly speaking, there are some reasons behind, but.., well, it's better to set this mind free from thinking too much, I guess. However, I admit, there are some-things. Things that  I DID NOT like, I DO NOT like, I CANNOT like, and I WILL NOT like. I cannot tell anyone directly what these things are about, but I do hope some or even just one of you can understand what I mean.


   I am Skype-ing with him whilst typing this on my blog. It's been a long-lonely night without him staying close to me. You must be wondering who this "him" is. I can't mention the name here bcs I haven't got any allowance to, but I tell you, please don't dare to do any question-answer-ing by yourself right there. You may guess wrongly for it's not as what you thought, note that. Okay, I'm not going to talk further about this, otherwise I'll be killed by someone out there. haha.  He's just the way too sweet and kind. So far, I think he worths being respected yet loved. So far. 


    Soft music from Billy Joel began to flow from my speakers. I  looked out of the window at the dark clouds hanging over this Lion country, thinking of all I had lost in the course of my life: times gone for ever, people who had disappeared, and the feelings I would never care again. Someday, I suppose, the shadows which lengthening at dusk will be swallowed up in darkness. My memory is growing ever more distant from the spot where my old self used to stand. Each time it appears, it delivers a kick to some part of my mind, but the kicking never hurts me anymore. There's no pain at all. just a hollow sound that echos with each kick. It has faded, yet ended. 


   I think that's all for today. It's time for me to sleep. Thanks for putting a visit. I'll catch you up tomorrow. Goodnight readers. 

  PS: For someone out there, goodnight. I'm longing for you.