Sunday, July 31, 2011

Girls Day Out

hai hai,

I had a very lovely morning with my girls today, Viona and Leny. We went to Tea Garden at around 9 although yes, I was late, hehe. Sorry for that ok babies. By the way, thanks for treating me guys. I know you love me, and so do I. mwah. We took lotsa pictures today and here are some of them,
This is Viona
This is Leny
And yes, this is me
love her
rabbits in action!
special gift for me, awwww
my wifes
happy family
taken with my polaroid

Leny and Me
Vio and Me
prettyyyyy and me
another pretty one and me
three of us
thanks for everythingggg
this is sweet

sooo pretttyyy
this is Leny's Mom
Leny's mom accompanied me whilst I was waiting for my friend, Milyardi to fetch me from there. I went to the beach with some other friends after this. I will post the activities tomorrow I guess. Well, I love you so much girls. Thanks for being my friends, my sisters, my gfs, my wifes, my everything and surely thank you for today. I'll miss you guys, will really miss you. Thanks for the sweet memories and I do hope our friendship could last forever. mwah!

" Every time you cross my mind, I think how lucky I've been, to have you as my special friend. "

Well, till there. Goodnight!
With love,


Saturday, July 30, 2011

Tears Behind My Eyes

" When you look into my eyes they may seem to be empty,
My eyes are full of tears, although you don't see any.

So many times my heart has been filled with pain,
And deep behind my eyes are pockets of tears that are ready to fall like rain.

I know at times I may appear to be tough,
but sometimes to bear the pain and heartache can be too much.

Sometimes I try and hide the tears that I cried just last night,
Tears that soaked my pillow wet long past mornings first light.

I know how it feels to be pushed away by someone you love,
I'm not afraid to admit my tears because I know that there's a far greater love, one that comes from above.

Happiness too will be mine, so until then I'll keep my my head up and eyes towards the skies,
And never allowing anyone to see the tears hidden behind my eyes."

by althapo1

They Play a Big Role in My Life

hello readers,

So this is my last day here. Have been doing this post for some weeks and it's dedicated to all of my closest friends who have affected my life yet accompanied me these long. I should be very grateful for having them in my life. So, here they are.


Viona Adelia (14 March 1993)
This is Viona. She is a good girl, not like me. haha. She sat in front of me when we were in the First Year of Junior High School and sat next to me since Senior High School. I call her "adek" alth she is actually older than me. But who cares? :p She is, I mean, she was quiet and calm. But thanks God, after some years of being my friend, she has been a bit talkative. As you see, she's pretty. She has a sharp nose, slit eyes, white skin, like a Japanese's Doll. She's like my sister alrd, and tell you girl, I love you so much. I never feel bored when I sit or talk to you. Sometimes we were having stupid convo and laughing like crazy. No one understands, just us. haha. I bullied her sometimes and well, sorry for that. No hard feelings ok baby. Well, you are going to continue your study at Manchester, far....far....away from me. I feel so sad, to be honest. But again, life is a choice. I just hope we can still be friends, not just friends but seriously more than that. We used to take care of each other these long. Idk who will take care of you or who will take care of me later on. Also don't know who I can talk to or laugh with after this, but I do hope we will still be the same when we meet again.Well baby, I love you.

Carissa Clarence (9 October 1992)
This is Carissa Clarence, the Mak Jimbo. We were in the same class since JHS. We weren't very close at first until we created a dance group, named U-Know. Since that, I knew more about her and her personalities. As you can see, she's very fashionable and unique. She's moody, strict sometimes, annoying sometimes, to the point, childish sometimes, lazy all the time, kind, responsible, weird, single and yes, rich. haha. She's also a good chef and of course, a good servant. Peace! Well, the last one is a joke. I learned so many things from her and I loved bothering her. Waking her up by jumping in her bed, pinching her, hugging her, and so on. She's like a mom and a teddy bear for me. Really. For you to know, we are gg to the same country for our study, Singapore, which means that I will have more time to bully and bother you, baby. I'm happy for that. Lastly, thank you for everything, and see you there! mwah!

Wenny Tan (22 November 1992)
So here comes the selfish, stubborn, neat, clever, diligent, funny, dependable, moody, fierce, but lovely girl, Wenny. She sat next to me when JHS the first year and we always got in a fight almost everyday. This is simply bcs of the similarities between us; our behaviors, tempers, and unforgivable moods. haha. She's a good listener however. May say, I told her everything, anything. She always be there when I need her. Thankyou baby. However baby, I wanna tell you sth, some bad points about you. You must seriously STOP telling yourself and everybody that you are fat. Ohmy. You are not fat at all ok. Lemme tell you, you are a pretty girl with white skin, soft hair, reddish lips, great personalities and abilities, and yes, GREAT forehead. haha. You must start loving yourself, appreciate yourself, and be proud of who you are. I always helped you in dressing up these long and Idk who will help you after this, but find me when you need me. I'll be there anytime you want. I'll miss the time sleeping together in my room, watching DVDs and chatting till the morning comes, eating, SUDAKO-ing, BECAK-ing, and many more. *FYI, she's the girl who took me out for a trip by BECAK and SUDAKO for the very first time in my life. hahaha. That's cool yet unforgettable! I love you, candy. Mwahh!

Yovita Fanstina Tanisha (21 June 1993)
Dolly Fanstina Tanisha. I think that name suits you more sweetie. Well, she's the cutest, kindest, loveliest, chinchai-est, smartest, easy going-est girl I ever met in this entire world. haha. She has a sharp nose, slit eyes as Vio's, chubby face, and unique teeth, a doll. I knew her since JHS, the first year. She was so nice to me that time, to everyone actually and till know, she's still so. We joined U-Know and it makes us closer. She loved to eat, sleep, travel, and laugh. She's just sooo unique. Nothing much to say about her, she's too kind to be true. I love you so much honey. Longlast with your bf, Enrico Davny. You guys are succha great couple. I'll directly kick him back to Medan after I arrive there, promise. hahaha. I love you, sugar.

Kenny Pribadi (8 November 1992)
This is Kenny. As you can see, he's handsome, tall, and fat*. He's also a troublemaker! haha. Some ppl think that he's quiet but actually he ISN'T. He's very very talkative, peace. He's also an expert in playing badminton. He's one of my "best-boy-friends" (read it carefully). I know some ppl dislike him for some reasons, I ever did too, but well, nobody is perfect, isn't it? I try to tell him directly everything I dislike from him, and well, it works. He's funny, lazy, crazy, and well, quite romantic. Although he failed for several times in his relationship with some girls simply because of HIS OWN MISTAKES, deeply inside, he's actually a good guy. Well, you usually asked me to accompany you to buy something for your someone someone someone and someone these long. Birthday, V-day, W-day, everyDAY! (cckck, you are too rich). I wonder who will do that for you after I leave, bwhahaha. In conclusion, you must do some changes on yourself okay. Proof the world that you can be a better one. Do some corrections ok, bud. Friends forever, HORAS!!!

Wilson Kongadian (20 June 1993)
Funny, crazy, dirty, lazy, flirty, so many ---y. No words can actually describe this guy. He's the only one in this world. LIMITED EDITION. You can't get this guy at any store in this world. hahaha. I seriously have no much words to describe about you, WK. I'm simply happy for having you as my friends. I seriously can't stop laughing when you are with me. You are a good dancer but well, we'll stop dancing after this uh? T.T Whatta sad truth. Good luck with your study and your love. I'll miss you, weirrddoooooo! 

Tommy Tiopan (29 July 1993)
Well, this is Tommy, well known as Atek. He's funny, nice, care, talented, crazy, and weird. Just like Wilson, he's succha LIMITED EDITION-in a different edition. He joined U-Know some years later after it was formed  This guy has a very unpredictable personalities. I myself can hardly understand him. I feel very comfortable when I'm with him however, and I never know why. He's very humorist and humble. Every single word comes out from his mouth could change the condition into better, sweeter, and warmer. He's a good, I mean, a VERY GOOD dancer, and a VERY GOOD singer too. I adore him so much. He moved to Jakarta some months ago and I was crying like hell that time. I don't know how this weird boy could affect my life so much like this. I rarely cry for my friends, just to be honest, but this boy could successfully make me cry. I'm very happy for having you as my friend, bud. Good luck with your study there, will missya! 
(P.S : That bag belongs to me)

Randy Chai (16 June 1993)
Whatta handsome boy eh? haha. Yes, he is handsome, kind, calm, and sometimes stupid*. I knew him since JHS. I have nothing much to tell about this guy. He's just...a good guy with a very good personality. I sometimes told him my problems and yes, thank you for always giving me some logical opinions and rational advices, although I don't really agree with some of them, erm, sometimes. Good luck with your study, boy. And yes, your love. haha. Hope you will get a good one later. Don't forget to tell me when you get one, ok! SEE YOU!

Milyardi Salim (21 May 1993)
Hello, Bonk! Well, this is Milyardi. He's the kindest guy i ever met in this entirrreeeee world. He's tall, good looking, smart, kind (very very kind), gentle, responsible, funny, and dependable. He was my friend since Primary School actually but then he moved to another class when JHS until SHS. Just to be honest, he's the gentlest guy I ever met. Just for an example, I wonder why he never complains when I asked him to fetch me when I have no drivers while others always did, even sometimes he's the one who offers himself to. I never met a guy like this, seriously. I'm proud of you, Bonk. You really know how to act not as a boy, but as a man. Thanks for accompanying me and be my *driver for some days. hahaha, peace. I'll leave tomorrow and I do hope when I come back later, you will fetch me with "Nis-J" not "bicycle". wkwkwk. Anw, learn from your previous mistakes and do never repeat it anymore. Good luck with your study and have a good one! Don't forget to tell me when you have one ok!!!

Hillary (6 August 1993)
This is Hillary, the cute girl. She's very pretty, kind, calm, clever, patient, and friendly. I share my problems sometimes with her and so does she. I think we are having the same case, but the difference is, you still don't have any guts to get out of your problem. Don't trap yourself in this condition, baby. You need to find your own happiness. I just hope you can open up your mind and eyes, and all of your problems will be solved. I pray for the best baby. Keep in touch, good luck, and I love you, sweetie.

Virgo Wu (1 September 1993)
Hi Virgo. He was actually my friend since Kindergarden, haha. He's handsome, easy going, funny, smart, kind, friendly, and a hard worker. I'm very happy for having you as my friend, Go. Don't forget me ok, boy. Good luck with your study and longlast with Achua! Will miss ya!!! T.T


This is my baby, Leny. I knew her some years ago at Leini Lee. She's such a nice girl. He's very smart, pretty, talented, kind, and friendly. She's a great ballerina. She also has a great Mom. I adore you so much, baby. I do hope our friendship could last forever. Thanks, thanks for everything. You always be there when I need you, cheer me up, play with me, date me, and many more. Thanks for succha sweet memories you gave to me. I'll seriously miss you. Please, please visit me anytime you have time. Thanks for being my friend, my sister, my gf, my wife, my everything. Keep in touch ya baby. I LOVE YOU!!!

Nelson Yap
Crazy, impolite, stupid, best describe this guy. hahaha, joke. Well, this is Nelson, the mysterious guy. He said that he knew me since JHS, but to be honest, I don't remember anything. Peace. He checked my fb some weeks ago, read blog, and mentioned me on twitter. Since that, I knew him more. He's succha nice guy. He's wise (blah), friendly, kind, and funny. He's my junior when JHS, and to be honest again, I don't remember till he told me so. haha. Sorry for my bad memory, boy. Erm, he loves to bully me and I don't know why. Maybe it has been one of your hobby, eh? Anw junior, thanks for accompanying me for some weeks, thanks for always giving me advices and supports. I do appreciate them. I still have no idea why I feel like you are wiser than me however. blah. If you are asking me what changes do I want from you....., there's seriously nothing. You are really good enough as a boy. You care about ppl's feelings, that's your good point. I just hope that this senior-junior relationship could last long. Don't worry, I won't forget you for the second time, hahahah. Besides, I think I will need your advices and supports more than before, after I arrive there. Don't forget to study hard, harder. I am waiting for your good news about having a new bb ok. haha. oh yeah, one more. Could you please stop letting yourself being used by others? What I mean here is...stop just being a consultant for others, you need to have your own life, make your own story, boy. But don't stop being my consultant yeah. Take me as your forever-patient. I'm leaving tomorrow, will mention you on twitter after I get my new lappie and Wi-Fi connection. Good bye, Junior. :)

Wilson Agung Pratama
The boy with the golden voice, yes, this is Wilson. He's more like a brother to me than just a friend. I knew him from MMS, we were placed in the same class with the same vocal teacher as well. He's very kind, responsible, cute, funny, crazy, friendly, weird sometimes, calm sometimes, and he's a good singer. I love his voice SO DAMN MUCH. "Because of You" is the best song I ever heard from him. He always brought chicken burger and ice cream for me anytime I felt hungry. Thank you, bro. You understand me so well. haha. I'm leaving tomorrow, don't miss me ok. :p I'll miss you, your voice, your LUMIX, and your CANON, which had kissed the floor, bwahahah. Good luck with your study and your job, ok. Keep singing, and.....GOODBYE!

William JW
My another brother from another mother, William. Same with Wilson, we were in the same vocal class at MMS. He has a unique voice. He's tall, yes very tall, kind, *naughty, weird sometimes, crazy, and kind. We used to talk stupid things together and ended up with laughing. I'm very happy for having you as my friend yet brother. Time ticks so fast eh? It's like we just met yesterday. Well, study harder ok, and STOP smoking or I'll kill you after I come back here. Take a good care of your health. Goodbye, brottaaahhhh!

Julya Irawan
This is Julya, my sister from another mother, hahaha. Same with the two above, she's my friend from MMS. She's the youngest one. She's pretty eh? haha and I guess she's succha kitty lover. I took this picture from your fb, never mind uhhh? Well, she has a lovely voice and she's very fashionable. She's funny, cute, lovely, kind, crazy, and talented. You are just very unique in my eyes. I love you so much, sistaaaa. Good luck with your study and job, never give up!! Gonna miss yoouuu.....!

Melisa Gozali
My sister, my teacher, my consultant, my dictionary, my my my my everything. She's a friend from Leini Lee, and yes, she's older than me, hehe. In my eyes, she's smart, sweet, kind, talented, and funny sometimes. I feel so comfortable when I'm talking to her. What I wanna say is, thank you sista for being my sister these long. You are so great and so damn adorable. Don't worry, I'll take care of myself there and I'll give you a good news. Won't disappoint any of you here. You too take a good care of yourself ok. Don't eat too much INDOMIE, hahaha! I'll miss you so much, sista. Will text you after I arrive there. LOVEEE YOUUUUUU...............!

Jeffry Wibowo
Here comes the handsome boy, (hoekq) haha. This is Jeffry. He's kind, very tall, friendly, calm, funny sometimes, and he's succha great badminton player. Don't dare to challenge him, wkwk. Thank you boy for these days. You have transformed me from a 9 o'clock girl into a 2 o'clock girl. haha. But thank you, you successfully make me laugh all these days. Do appreciate it. Well, I'm leaving, but this is not the end of everything. I'm really happy for having you as my friend. You share, tell some of your problems to me, and I'm really touched. You must learn to face your problems and don't run from it. You are a good guy actually, I know, that's why you deserve someone good. Good luck with your study and your job. Do hope for the best. Have a good one and, good bye! :)

" Goodbyes are not forever.
Goodbyes are not the end.
They simply mean I'll miss you
Until we meet again!

~The End~

With tears and love,


Monday, July 25, 2011

The Last 7 Days


So, this is my last week staying at my home town, Medan. I feel so sad, frankly. I still have so many plans to do with my friends and my family but time ticks so fast, too fast, really fast. sigh. I had my music theory course this morning, then fetched my brother from sch and yes, sth bad happened. I'm not gg to tell you what this was about bcs it could seriously raise my temper. Although I was very angry, but I still tried to calm myself down with ice cubes for I realized, anger solves nothing. I know using ice cubes were weird, but who cares, as long as it works. Well, just skip this part. Anyway, I really thanked some of my friends who sweetly sent me some advices on bbm and twitter this afternoon. Tons of thanks. 

I went home, took my showah, my lunch, then fell asleep while chatting and twittering with friends. Idk why, but today I feel so sick. My cough is getting worse and worse. I also got a fever and succha annoying flu. Whattaaa package!!! I woke up some minutes after that, erm, I forgot why I woke up, reached my bb and again, checked my bbm and twitter. Yeah, both of this human's inventions have addicted my life lately. haha. I spent some hours chatting with friends then took my showah again. I seriously forgot whether I had my dinner or not. But to be honest, I'm hungry right now.

I'm still having some chats with friends whilst typing on my blog. Sth funny happened just now. One of my...well, senior called me on fb and asked me whether I still remember him or not. Honestly, I don't. So I simply told him so. He was like..."oh okay" and told me who is he actually. I was shocked, embarrassed at the same time! So sorry, really sorry for this and that, senior. No hard feelings please. hiks. Well, let's skip this part too. This is a secret however. Oh silly me! (anw, I told someone about this. hey, you-know-who-I-mean, don't dare to tell anyone about this ok, haha)

Well, it's around 11:40 alrd and my stomach is calling me. Gotta search for some food at the kitchen and take a rest. Thankyou for reading, guys. Goodnight.

" So many problems left behind. not solved, but forcefully, closed. Well, never mind, I think I'm good enough in pretending that things are all-right. Life is a drama, isn't it? :) " #TVQ

" If everything left unsolved, you might end up able to stand strong and move on like nothing happens before "  #TNQ

With love,


Friday, July 22, 2011

The Last 10 Days

hai mates,

It's 21.15 alrd here and I'm hungry. Just done my showah and now typing on my blog. I don't know what to write actually so let me just share some activities I did today.

Last night I slept at 2.30, having a night-till-morning chat with friends of mine, and woke up at 6 this morning. My sleeping time is unorganized well these lately. But idc, it's 10 days left here, hiks. I took my showah, and dropped my brother to his school. After that, I went to the market with Mom and Dad to buy some cooking materials, had our b'fast then went home. I took my showah again and fell asleep till my brother woke me up for lunch. With messy look and half soul, I had my lunch. Then I went back to my room, replied some mentions on twitter, chats on bbm, and comments on fb. I also played a guessing game with one of my friends, and I can't help myself out from laughing. And as usual, I got some advices and supports from my junior. He's a good listener yet adviser. I feel so glad for having all of you guys. Thankyou.

Well, till there. I'm lazy to write anything today. Goodnight.

With love,


Wednesday, July 20, 2011

My Heart Is Tired Of Words


I'm so tired today. A friend of mine asked me to accompany him to buy sth for someone. Not gg to mention his and her name or I'll be killed by both, LOL. I got Itco as my lunch before hunting for the gift, and watched Blitz, the bloody movie. I hate this film, swear. I was a victim actually today. They were busy with their own topics and I was like "dicuekin". hiks. Pity me. But.., never mind never mind, just take this as the last  good thing I could do for you ok guys. After that, we went to Index to buy "something" for this "someone". I picked, and he paid. Then, we went to Jco and he bought a dozen of doughnuts for my mom (well, not for me, hiks). Lastly, we went to Starbucks, my favorite place and I went home by taxi.


By the way, today I met some friends at Sun coincidentally, about five or six. Some of them who didn't know anything were shocked and started to spread the gossip. I really adore them for their mouths are faster than any internet connections in this world. I'm not shocked, not angry, or get annoyed, don't worry. I'm get used to it. Wishing you a very GOOD LUCK with your guessing guys. :D


Dear ex, 

Let me tell you something today. You must seriously mirror yourself and think twice before you say something. Ask yourself, are you good enough these long? are you better than others or just simply better than me? do you ever be there when I need you? do you ever appreciate everything I gave and did to you? do you ever realize anything? do you ever feel what I feel? do you ever stand for me? do you ever give your time to me more than you give to your friends? do you ever take me out for a date and make me feel like I'm special? do you ever try to put an effort on our relationship? do you ever choose to pick me up at my home rather than to pick your friends from somewhere? do you ever have any inisiative to come to my house and talk to my parents without needing me to force you to do so? do you know how hurt my feeling is knowing that everything I did means nothing to you? do you ever know how hurt it is when my parents compares their pity daughter's love-life to their friend's daughter's love-life and I have nothing to say about this? do you ever know how hard I tried to hold on this stupid-pity relationship before? do you ever know how hard my life is these long? do you know how much tears are falling down from my eyes just bcs of you? do you ever know I am worrying you in every of my time? do you ever know how much I miss you? do you ever know how much I love you? DO YOU EVER??!! You NEVER!! That's the problem. You never care. In the past, you gave me all of your sadness and I would just stupidly listen and try to understand you, your problems, and your family. Did you ever share any happiness to me? You better think and ask yourself.

Your bullshits and fucking promises are enough for me. I don't wanna be the one who cries every night, the one who is worrying you, while you are laughing happily, flirting, and acting like nothing's wrong right there. Boys are boys, and you are just the same. Do you really think I'm that stupid? Crying when you are laughing? Tell you, I'm watching you these long, and I never feel like you are trying to fix anything or at least thinking about us, even just for once. So, is it worth if I'm still missing you, worrying you, loving you? What is it for? Torturing myself and let you ppl laugh at me? Take me as a topic to talk about, telling them how good you are and how bad I am? I'm so sorry, I can't let you and them do that. My life worths more than that.

You don't need to be angry or what for everything I did. It's you, who taught and forced me to be like this. I have told you before, if being good never works, then let me stop being so. I'm enough, I'm tired. Tired of waiting, tired of hoping, tired of crying, tired of everything. Really. Don't say I never give you or us a chance to fix everything up. I did. It's just you who never care. So, what do you want from me now? I have nothing to give anymore. You have taken everything. The only thing I could do now is being another me. I won't care, won't cry, won't fall down, won't think too much, won't torture myself, and won't worry you anm. Go and find your own happiness, that's what you want, right? You too, don't need to worry anything about me and stop acting like you care. You make me sick by your fake actions. I'm alright and happy. That's what you need to know. I seriously won't care with you or your life anm. You are not the one I loved anm, you are succha jerk.

You guys, everyone who talks about me behind. If you read this, please note that YOU ARE NOT ME. Don't try to judge me or guess how I feel. You have no idea. More, do kindly stop acting like you guys know everything about me, you know nothing. And for you, yes you, no matter how hard you try to pull me down or make me sad, I don't care. It's useless. You may hate me, I'm happy if you do so. BUT, if you guys don't know anything about the truth, then  


Sorry for this post. You guys are messing up with me first. Goodnight.


Tuesday, July 12, 2011


"Time is free, but it's priceless
You can't own it, but you can use it
You can't keep it, but you can spend it
Once you've lost it
You can never get it back"

Tons of love,


Monday, July 11, 2011

Be Grateful For What We Have

hello readers,

I'll take a chance to write about life this time.  But first of all, let me ask you, what is life? I believe this doesn't sound like a strange question to you. Of course we all know what is meant by the word "life", but how would you define it? Do all living things move? Do they all eat and breathe? Even though we all seem to know what is meant by saying that something is "alive", it's not very easy to describe what "life" is. It's almost as hard as describing where life came from.

We must admit that we, as people keep protesting for problems we have in our life. Some of us even blame ourselves for what has happened. We feel stressed, depressed, guilty, messy, useless, and hopeless. Even sometimes, we blame the mighty for what happened to us.  I confess, I did and felt so before. But guys, let us together put ourselves in two different point of view about this life.  Let me show you some photos.


Well, these are some examples. Exclusive dinner, expensive camera, shopping, newest stuffs, snacks, clubbing, and so on. Now, let's see and compare "our" life to "theirs".


I won't talk too much. I do hope these could answer and wake you up guys. Just remember, if you start thinking that your life is a mess, look down, there are still lots, LOTS of people who are unluckier and need our helps. Start from today, stop complaining, stop protesting, and...


Till there. Enjoy reading guys.

With love,